Bubbly brown joy –

Like a hermit emerging from a cloister,

A dusty apparition far too long living lonesome

Existence lost in some existential dungeon where forlorn souls escape to hid from themselves midst thoughts

Long years in cold, quiet places has caused spider webs to grow around my heart-

I have crawled out of a nightmare

I am set on long intended return journey

From some very quiet and distant places

Cold and silent places that have lost their appeal-

Despairing of their intensity of emptiness,

This supremacy of soul and mind neglecting the body

I take leave, for my body and its beating heart has found a way

Away out of burrowing emptiness-

I have had my fill of emptiness

When sublimate self-discerning beauty is a fading shadow on cracked mirrors, hanging on decaying walls, where whispery spider webs are a layer fluttering over old painted walls-

Known sensations taste bland to my perceptual senses

A profound gloom causes my empty emotions to heave painfully

I heed a calling; from hidden chambers of memory

Recall of pleasant things that made me love you once-

I have latched onto flitting memories

Of an enduring relation left unattended

Fading glint of a smile on a sweet face, now ashen

Sudden light on emotions darker side-

Through sunken eye of imagination’s reality

I see you all anew in sparkling light of idealistic renewal

Warmth that spreads from within

Bringing forth a glowing bronze of first human-

Lustre of golden light bobbing on calm waters

Alluring, becalming love beckoning of joy

Unto whom I come to share building indulgence

Of this realisation, this sudden awakening-

II

I come on a speeding midnight train

A wall of sound whooshing

Through cold winters cladding of icy white

Cutting a thin slice of simmering heat through cold wintry darkness dense-

With a bottle of wine and

A heart overflowing with love reignited

To awaken you to dawn of a wakening day

Certain to share a quiet moment together-

Bubbly brown joy

Your amour fills tensile air

Keening sharp with expectancies

Desirable soft flame of love

In this cavernous shell of encompassing cold-

...Filling it to full

Overflowing, let its warmth drip over like hot chocolate

I come for you-

Through cracks of memory, a smile spreading

Then spreading on this tired face...

Your sweet soft lips

Pressing down on my hot and eager lips

Moulding emotions uncontained flowing over

Redefining reality-

How I miss that silver flash of your smile

Bright flower bud of bursting joy

Tingling pearls of laughter,

Dripping joy in tinkling trinkets of diamonds playing

Your teeth, glinting, sparkling clear diamonds-

My African queen,

Ardour of sweetest beauty

Glamorous subtlety

So shy, a feigned reluctance enthralling in your ardour-

Tremulous trembling of love out of control

Memories sharpening expectations of joys barely contained

Gliding before me, before my mind’s eye

Painting your assorted beauty

On screens of your unending appeal-

Peace and serenity,

A calm hand in silent, lonely night

Reassuring strength, flickering flames

Lingering fireworks exploding periodically

That light up darkest of nights, night of my dark moods

Tiny bubbles of energy in exclamation

Your beauty and feline femininity bursting forth-

Sweetest honey filled kisses

A slow molten lava flowing

Setting fire to every nerve on my face

Molten chocolate of fiery love wrapping my body

How I long to hold you-

So here I come

Riding midnight train of expectations

Whooshing through wintry night’s cold corridor,

Coldness of harsh wintry night-

I burn this fire

My desire; burning coal

Fuelling this roaring steam engine

Pumping pure energy, a puff of steamy cloud hanging over these frozen steel rails-

My desire is electricity

Cackling, crackling barely contained in these cold steel chambers and speeding this train;

Running this engine

Speeding train running unrestrained through coldest of nights

Pounding energy, sliding through crisp cold night, homeward bound-

Rough, unkind night

You don't dampen my joy

You pickle me and catalyse me

You set me on edge,

 Then I wrap myself in your velvety joy of a single mind set on purpose

For assuring end is all pure delight-

Beyond those cold piers

Away from those frozen steel tracks

Is a warm bundle of joy,

Warmth of a desirable nature waiting to share my joy-

My lover;

Brown chocolate, slowly warmed over gentle fire

A molten joy of desire flowing

Overflowing with desire

My hope, am going home to my joy-

III

My African beauty

Has a gap in her teeth

She laughs with time all times

Her laughter breaks dawns hold bringing in sunshine

She mirrors exalted joy of awakening dawn in her radiant face

And lightens my darkest mood-

This little bundle of strength

Bubbling with unceasing activity

Up with very dawn

And knocking against stone

Fetching home fresh milk and golden honey

On sweat of her brow-

Nurturing mother, a delight to womanhood

Soft touch of gentle soul

Hard and strong

As bravery a form could assume in unbreakable spirit within-

Balancing lover

Mother and woman

Conjuring amazing balancing act

Of demanding strength

Executed with agile ease

A centre of balanced ease

Bearing weighty world on delicate neck-

Crinkly black hair of darkest silkiness

Adorning a shell of knowledge

A head full of hair tossed

Knowledge daintily balanced on forearms

A joy in procession

This pride of youth

Mighty tower of strength undaunted in diminutive size

My sweetest brownest bundle of joy-

Considerate mother

Caring lover

Delightful wife

Perfect fulfilment of femininity

Bursting vivaciousness of life

Beating to submissive ease

Protruding hardened edges

Till moulded in curvaceous suppleness

Blended in wholesome supportive energy

You define your household-

“Tiny”, see how big you are

In my emotional zone

You fill me full length

There is no other image

But your pretty poutiness

Your ageless grace

Striding in such becalming ease

You walk over times waters-

Twittering bird

Chirping away

Preaching away your opinion

Your send forth flowery joy

Sparkling

Flowery effusion of radiant joy filling empty spaces

Leaving words of eternal beauty

Mirroring all creation’s subtle beauty

That you bring to the fore with ease-

See, sometimes

It takes some separation

A little loneliness to gain a deeper perspective

To enable that clearer appreciation

Of things held ever so dear-